Deja Vu

So, I called up my doctor today for my test results and they are all normal. I realise that this is probably a good thing but I am really frustrated. I've been trying to research it myself but I can't make a diagnosis on my own, and I feel like they're never going to work out what it is and it will just keep getting worse and worse until I am no longer able to have contact with ordinary human beings. I don't even know what specialist to ask to be referred to and they will just keep fobbing me off until I give up. The future is not looking bright.

I read about one thing that might be causing it and to diagnose that they do blood tests, but differently to the one I had. They do numerous tests in a controlled environment to work out the cause and the area of the body it's in. So maybe the blood test I had wouldn't even detect the problem anyway. And maybe I need to start gearing myself up for many many needle pricks. Fun.

I dislike my doctors so much - they are husband and wife and they're just so useless. When I went last week, she just shoved the papers at me to get the blood test and said "fast". She didn't tell me how long to fast, where I had to go for the test, suggest what could be wrong, offer any kind of comfort, or anything. Bedside manner much?

If this does keep getting worse I'm going to have to become a hermit before I accidentally smother somebody with a pillow.